An apology to Williams.

Do you think I have grovelled enough? 


My dearest Williams

I am so, so sorry about the email I sent to you last night. It is unforgivable and I am thoroughly ashamed of myself.

To be honest Williams, I rarely drink. I find that alcohol loosens ones inhibitions far too much and makes you act in a way that is ungodly. Last night has proved this beyond doubt. I just hope and pray that you can find it in your heart to forgive me for my disgraceful behaviour.

It was the Cockin-Mianus Parish Council Christmas party last night. We have all been working very, very hard to make sure the village has the most wonderful and traditional of Christmases. We here in Cockin-Mianus, pride ourselves on the fact that we provide traditional Christmas cheer for all our residents. We plan for months before hand and spend many a long night drawing up plans for the live nativity, the tree and the festive market. People come from all over the country to see what we have on offer as we really do make such an effort. This year we had even managed to get Jim Bowen (host of the super, smashing, great programme Bullseye ) to turn on the lights! That was quite a coup as he rarely leaves the house these days after the incident with Keith Harris and Orville and the speedboat that failed to be won in episode 6 of series 9.(nasty business that was). We were all so proud of what we had achieved Williams.

Like I say, I rarely drink Williams. Yesterday was the anniversary of the death of my beloved Alphonse. Even after all these years it still hurts. I don't think you ever truly get over the death of a loved one. Seeing the local greengrocer Jimmy dressed as Santa, giving children a treat from his bulging sack just brought the memories flooding back. Every year since we moved to Cockin-Mianus, my beautiful Alphonse had played the role of Santa. He truly loved it. Knowing I would never see him again, let alone as Santa, sent me into a spiral of despair. I stared to drink. The wine was free so I took full advantage of it.

Oh Williams! I feel so dreadful this morning. I am ashamed of the email I sent you last night. It is unforgivable. I really hope you can find it in your heart to understand my grief and that this is why I behaved as I did. This whole sorry incident has made me realise that I need to move on. Alphonse is dead and is never coming back. I deserve to be happy once more and I am hoping that you are the man to do that. I see a future as bright as the Cockin-Mianus Christmas lights ahead for us. One full of love, happiness and wealth. I have no one to share my good fortune with, I am alone and lonely. I need you in my life Williams. Please don't let this one unfortunate incident put a stop to our future happiness.

I shall spend the rest of the day in quiet contemplation, praying to the Lord God Almighty to forgive me and show me the way. Williams, if the Lord can forgive me then I hope you can do too. I shall also be giving a sizable monetary donation to a local charity Cockin-Mianus HURTS. HURTS stands for Homeless Under Roofs This Season and aims to provide accommodation for local homeless people over the Christmas season and beyond. I do voluntary work for them and find it most rewarding.

For now my beloved, I beg once more for your forgiveness and pray that you reply to my plea.

Much love always

Your Camille x x x x x x x x x